Smoking

Well yesterday i had a revelation to stop smoking... things in my life have become so crazy and i am at a loss to know what to do.

i told myself i will stop smoking and i had my last smoke at 18:15 last night while making dinner. I managed fine until around 8 it started feeling someone was gonna rip out the bottom of my lungs

THE PAIN WAS UNBEARABLE but i still did not smoke. i was proud of myself and fell asleep early.

I woke up around 3 and couldn't sleep again. i still didn't smoke and when i left home the moment of weakness hit me and i went to buy smokes.

i've managed good so far and i've only had 4 smokes.

I have no willpower.