Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Public Holiday

i had a very eventful public holiday... all i did was sleep.

Monday, December 15, 2008

I found it !!!

I found it !!!

You know when you are so occupied with something and then you hear a song and you stop doing everything to listen to the song.

I found it, i found the song that describes my mental state, current situation and emotion about life

Not gonna post the lyrics....just listen...

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

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Its monday again, 3 more working days then i'm leave now.

Sound excited don't i ? not sure why i'm not because i haven't taken leave in december in nearly 4 years and i need the break.

The weekend was quiet, only real interesting thing that happened is that we had a braai on saturday and my friends family came through and we took it easy.

Sunday i couldn't stand sitting at home any longer and decided to go walk around. i decided that since i was there i might as well go say hi to my ex because i still am a human being even though i sound relentless.

She didn't seem really bugged that i came to say hi so i wasn't there for long and i went home.

I don't want to be alone this holiday. it seems that i can't find someone just for the december to spend with. i don't want to go to my freaking family on christmas because they're a bunch of snobs and i will eventually just piss them all off and get into my car and leave AGAIN.

I did however figure out something this weekend walking through the mall. its amazing how many people will look at you when you aren't "looking" I picked up small and subtle hints about everyone i bumped into this weekend and i like it but i'm not sure if i'm correct about the hints but we will see.

Thursday, December 11, 2008


This is gonna be a long post.

i have a slight hangover too so this post might not make any sense.

I went out last night with friends as it was students night at the keg. i was a bit apprehensive as i felt there was something wrong. its hard to explain.

I've had a rough couple of weeks with my ex wanting her stuff back, my current ex girlfriend not being able to explain to me why the hell we broke up and why she needs time and me just getting utterly confused about life in general.

I was sitting at the keg last night with some of my closest friends and for a point everything around me just disappeared and i was alone.

Ok wait, this isn't gonna work. got a massive headache, the freaking aircons aren't working and i just feel crap.