Itchy as hell !

Today is a little tough for me.

Let me update...

Saturday i went for my tattoo. 2 hours of sitting in a chair was well worth it but i forgot what it felt like afterwards. This tattoo is a little bit bigger than the one on my shoulder and i will upload a pic.

I'm itchy and irritated and i can't scratch and its annoying me.

Smoking

Well yesterday i had a revelation to stop smoking... things in my life have become so crazy and i am at a loss to know what to do.

i told myself i will stop smoking and i had my last smoke at 18:15 last night while making dinner. I managed fine until around 8 it started feeling someone was gonna rip out the bottom of my lungs

THE PAIN WAS UNBEARABLE but i still did not smoke. i was proud of myself and fell asleep early.

I woke up around 3 and couldn't sleep again. i still didn't smoke and when i left home the moment of weakness hit me and i went to buy smokes.

i've managed good so far and i've only had 4 smokes.

I have no willpower.

The weekend

The weekend was fun i have to admit, went through all the motions.

Friday night :

I got to my friends mom's house and he was there with the girlfriend and the baby and since he had to work the saturday he spent the night there. i wasn't really in the mood to do anything and he suggested i phone one of our friends and find out what he was up to.
He told me he had a braai happening and asked me if i would join and i said i would. Went to the bottle store and got some booze and meat and went through.

i think i had one drink and my "little sis" phoned me and asked if i would pick her and her friends up at Emperors and take them through to the friends house. i promptly went through, pick them up and dropped them off and drove back to my friends house. I had to jump the freaking wall cos no one was hearing me and my cell was flat.

We sat the whole night outside under the lapa and got pissed and just chatted. a band who we are good friends with were there aswell so we mostly spent the night talking about music. IT WAS GREAT FUN.

Saturday :

Saturday morning i got a early phone call as i promised to go out with my Xfiance to get her tattoo and since i didn't see her yesterday i went through (i was still pissed but the coffee helped)

I stayed with her for the whole tattoo and it looks brilliant, will upload a photo. We chatted for a little then i went through to my mom.

I got to my mom and i noticed her small poodle was just laying there and the dog usually couldn't wait to say hi to me. my mom said she is very sick and i took her to the shops and came back. we sat and talked for a few hours and i started feeling the hangover effects and went home, crashed on the couch and watched movies.

Sunday :

I woke up sunday morning and laid there and i had to pry myself off the couch and go through to my brother...will never ask him for directions again.

We had a nice lunch and i went home. My girlfriend came to visit me for a short while cos her parents haven't really seen her this weekend and it was nice. that is a story for another time.

Monday :

My mom phoned me this morning and Sheva, her small poodle died this morning. It is a sad day for me.

Dammit !!!!

I'm fuming today for one simple reason.

Someone showed me something and i was really keen on getting them.

This person turns around and takes them without thinking how badly i want these things.

Dammit, i hate this but they are now stuck without a lift.

Relationships and Cleaning...

Hehehe i was a real boy yesterday as in lunchtime i decided to go buy new dash dials for my car. My temperature and fuel gauges don't work so well so i thought it better to go buy new ones and fit them. Yes i broke them if you are asking.

I'm working this weekend and its gonna be crazy as everyone wants me to see them this includes Badgirl and Confused (a girl i met) The problem is i wanna see Badgirl alot as she was in tears last night as her relationship basically ended and i also wanna see Confused as we haven't seen each other in 2 weeks. Gonna see how i can arrange it :)

Last night getting home my roomie wasn't there and i walked into the kitchen and the place was a f-ing mess from sunday. i started cleaning and now it super clean and i'm not normally a cleaning person. I started playing games and my friend got home a little intoxicated and we just watched a movie, got some dinner and went to bed.

Just got a new Tshirt from work...Vodacom Foundation day.

Gonna see tonight if i'm up for a drink at the Keg as its students night and i haven't seen my friends in a while...mmmm.

Sooo Tired

Yesterday all i wanted to do was sleep, i told myself i was going to home and be in bed by 9.

After work my friend phoned me and said he's going through to his mom and i met him there. we had dinner and then we went home. I took a shower and was asleep at 9...:)

My ex fiance - bad girl now, sent me a letter yesterday she wrote to me and i nearly cried. This girl means the world to me and if i ever have to take a bullet it would be for her. I'm gonna write her a letter back and she's also going through some relationship issues and i will be there for her. NO MATTER WHAT.

Da weekend

The weekend was not one of the best in the world.

Friday night i was supposed to go out with a dear friend (ex fiance) as we now have a routine of skating together. Our friendship is a secret as her parents will always deny anything between us but i'm happy where i am with "us" We have become super close and still share our special bond which is scary yet makes me happy because thats what i want.

Sooo friday night i hooked my laptop up to my TV and watched the first 2 seasons of Dirty Sexy Money and i enjoyed it, went later on and got myself some Pizza and went back home. Typical loner night....

Saturday morning I woke up to clean the entire house as my roomies brother was having his Bday party there. i was alone till about 12 when everyone started pitching up and then the drinking started. i Told my self i won't drink too much and i ended up having my drink mixed the whole f-ing night and now there will be photo's on FB...Hell.

I had a bit too much to drink and invited goddaughter's dad around to join us as he has been going through a tough time and he said he's waiting for the mom to arrive as he kicked her out the house. I later on after about 3 quarters bottle of spiced gold i phoned him again and he said she was there. My mind immediatelly kicked into overdrive "anger" and i jumped into my car and raced there.

After a massive screaming match with her i calmed down and went home and continued drinking.

Sunday i woke up and there was a glass on my table of something that was a concoction of god knows what but it was revolting. i pretty much stayed on the couch the whole day feeling sorry for myself.

Lets hope the week goes better.